#21 - The one in which I seem materialistic

This year Christmas will be strange for me. The only present I will have to open will be from my son. That makes me kind of sad. It's not the presents themselves that bother me. It's the fact that right now I only have 4 people in my life who are close enough to me to even consider presents, my sister, brother-in-law, mom, and son. I'm not used to having so few close connections in my life. I've always bought presents for friends. Gift giving is one of my "love languages" (If you don't know what that is Google it. There's even a free test you can take.). I love giving people gifts. It is one of the way that I show how much I care about other people. This year the only gifts I'm giving are to Rory. I guess my life just feels a little empty right now. I have an amazing family, but that can only go so far. I know it's going to take time to meet people and build friendships, but it's just hard. I feel like Veruca Salt. "I want it now!"