#8 - The Last Words

"I appreciate that"
Those are the last words you said to me
What if
Those are the last words you will ever say to me?

How do I handle that loss
How do I process being tossed aside again
Can I?
Will it even be possible?

How can I express the pain in my chest?
How can I scream with rage?
How do I pick up the pieces
Of my new fractured reality

Do you understand the affect you've had on me?
Do you get how much I care?
Do you know how I wanted you to be proud of me?
I don't know how to move forward.

I want to reach out
I want to call or text
I don't though
I'm afraid that will push you farther away

I hope that isn't the end.
I hope to hear your voice again.
I hope you will return
But I doubt it

I've been thrown away before
More than once
I shouldn't be surprised
That I've been thrown away again